Once, I knew an individual. There was always this wild chemistry around us. But, there was also something closed about him, what prevented me from realizing what I felt for him. This story is not about love, it’s about racism. For this individual was a swarthy man. I never looked at him that way. He was just an individual to me, one I came to respect deeply.
A class mate of mine, who lives right next to me, and I came up with the idea to write a story about a black boy in the United States. And boy, was I not prepared to be overwhelmed with the shit they go through ev-er-y sing-le day. But I felt like I should go through with it nonetheless.
Our research started with understanding the theme of the story, that we had agreed to write. Racism. To be more specific about this theme we had to read and listen to many sources, because that’s called research. The catch?: you have to stay objective and distant, not letting it get to your head how totally fcked up this whole racism issue is.
The second part of my research was imparting the knowledge;of interviews I’ve listened to and having watched the Youtube videos of real people, on my blank page. Then they just materialized. From my mind came a story. Sure it wasn’t finished yet. That belongs to part three.
Part three of my research about racism, to make a story, was to view the most accurate version without sounding fake, because I am a white woman that is speaking from a perspective I might not even understand. Which is true and i won’t deny it. But brothers and sisters out there, that are in different shades of colour, I might not fully comprehend and profoundly understand the life you are going through, what I can say is this: you are a magnificent human being because you are every color that is apart from boring. Celebrate it! You are even genetically more healthy than I am (Fox News, 2008). I feel often trapped in my “white body”.
To this particular individual that I had adored in the past, without scrutinizing our skins, I hope you are happy and well-loved by friends and family. I hope you have plans to get married to your girlfriend and that you buy a dog together because you are cute and I wish you well.
P.s. I am happy with my life and thank you for having had me in your life.
Fox News (February 22, 2008) “Whites genetically weaker than blacks, study finds”. Retrieved from: http://www.foxnews.com/story/2008/02/22/whites-genetically-weaker-than-blacks-study-finds.html
Podcast of TED Radio Hour by Clint Smith. (Friday, March 16, 2018) NPR: “The consequences of Racism”. Retrieved from: https://www.npr.org/programs/ted-radio-hour/593866581/the-consequences-of-racism